Ahh... aku terlalu tua untuk merasa sepatah hati ini, dan lucunya semua ini salahku.

aku mempunyai seseorang yang bertahan denganku selama ini, sementara aku tidak cukup baik memperlakukannya. Aku tak ada saat dia membutuhkanku, waktuku habis dengan hidupku sendiri.

Mungkin sesabar-sabarnya dia pada akhirnya dia pun menyerah. Dia pergi...

Betapa buruknya perasaan ditinggalkan tanpa bisa memperbaiki kesalahanmu, sama sekali tak ada kesempatan untuk kembali. Kamu sendirian sekarang, 

That feeling of missing someone so much that it would almost feel better if they never existed...

Do you ever find yourself suddenly missing someone so much that it takes your breath away? One minute you're fine, and the next, you're swamped with memories of them. Their voice, their laugh, the things they'd say—it all comes rushing back, and it's so intense it almost knocks you over. And the more you remember, the more you realize how much their absence has left you feeling hurt, hollow. So you force yourself to think about why they're gone, to keep yourself from falling apart....

Drink

Why do people drink alcohol it tastes disgusting?

you don’t drink it for the taste. u drink shit like apple juice for the taste. you drink alcohol to get rid of the bad taste that every awful person in your life has left

Mencintai Terlalu Dalam

Kadang, ketika kita mencintai seseorang terlalu dalam, kau jadi lupa, bahwa engkau pun seorang yang istimewa. Dan itu, kelak, terasa menyakitkan.

~Langit Bara Lajuardi

I’m staying because my HEART doesn’t know how to leave. 

I’m not waiting for a PROMISE or a GUARANTEE, 

I’m here because something in ME tells me it’s WORTH IT. 

I’m holding on not because I’m WEAK, but because HOPE is STRONGER THAN DOUBT. 

Maybe I’m a fool but if I loving her, means fighting for even the smallest chance then that’s battle I’m willing to face everyday. 

It’s not about what I get, it’s about what I feel and right now my HEART wants to stay it’s not about winning or losing it's about having the courage to stay

when walking away would be easier...

It's okay floo… they didn’t believe in you. And maybe… they never will. 

But the hardest part isn’t their doubt… it’s knowing that you gave everything… and it still wasn’t enough.

Broken Heart

Uhh.. never thought, at this age I would feel so broken

your heart is hurt... 

sometime it feels like the weight of it will never lift

like the ache is carved too deep to heal

but here's the true, you're stronger than the pain

every scar every tear is proof that you survived

it's oke to feel broken

it's oke to not have the answers

but remember, even the heavies storms pass

your heart will find it's way through the darkness

and went it does you will realise tha the hurt didn't break you

it make you stronger even when you didn't feel it

take your time

heal in your own way

because even the shattered hearts can still beat again...

Hurt

It’s okay to speak up. 

It’s okay to feel hurt and let it out. 

Some people are masters at twisting the truth, making you feel like you’re wrong for reacting.

They turn your pain into “drama,” make you doubt your own feelings, 

and paint you as “crazy” for simply defending yourself. 

But don’t let anyone silence your truth. 

You’re not overreacting… 

you’re just finally standing up for yourself.

Lupa Rasanya Patah

Yah... saat kericuhan mereda... sakitnya baru terasa. Seperti sesuatu yang diremas di dada.

Lupa rasanya patah...

Lost Somewhere or Just Living My life?

Oh... waaw.... Sepertinya saya sudah menjadi anak yang hilang, tersesat entah di mana.

 

Seiring bertambahnya usia, kita terlalu malas mengurusi urusan temeh, drama yang tidak jelas. Fokus pada perjuangan kita sendiri untuk menjadi manusia sehingga setiap momen rentan, mungkin akan berumur pendek dalam ingatan.

Saat kamu mencapai tingkat dalam hidup menjadi baik-baik saja, kamu merasa tidak memerlukan apapun lagi. Tapi Kenyamanan itu yang justru menimbulkan kebosanan.  

 

But Sometimes, sometime... I miss those feelings, the freedom, the goosebumps when you see a new place, the joy of traveling, breathing air to your heart's content... being my self.

Given

I thought that love would be softer, sweeter and kinder.

I found out with my first love that those thoughts were just a happy delusion. Falling in love with someone is something much more violent, like having your flesh ripped apart.

Falling in love with someone means you have to expose the softest, most fragile parts of yourself to them. Otherwise, it won’t work out.

Being touched sends you spiraling into delirium. The slightest hint of their nails on your skin rips it open, and if they try to crush you with any intent, it’s fatal.

Gambar Manga : Given