Hurt, broken, is an understatement. My whole life came to a halt. How did this one person have so much power over my mood. I don't understand how I lost myself. I tried to forget I tried to let go I tried to do no contact but each day got harder and harder. 

There wasn't one moment where I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. So I contacted her and I've lowered my standard for her. I became this person I don't even know. I was believing what she was saying instead of seeing her actions for what it was. Do I still see her? Yes. She's like a drug now. When she calls my heart flutters my face smiles. When I don't hear from her I'm low super low, when she doesn't answer I immediately cry because I feel like she'll never come back. But more because who am I why am I this girl now? What is wrong with me

One more day, one last look Before I leave it all behind And play the role that's meant for us 

That said we'd say goodbye

One more night by your side where our dreams collide and all we have is everything 

And there's no pain there's no hurt, there's no wrong, it's all right.

If I promise to believe, will you believe? that there's nowhere that we'd rather be, nowhere describes where we are.

I've no choice, I love you, you wave goodbye.

And all I ever wanted was to stay and nothing in this world gonna change.

Never wanna wake up from this night, never wanna leave this moment, waiting for you only.

Never gonna forget every single thing you do, when loving you is my finest hour.

Leaving you, the hardest day of my life, I still breathe, I still eat and the sun it shines the same as it did yesterday but there's no warm, no light I feel empty inside

But I never will regret a single day, I know it isn't going to go away.

Ahh... aku terlalu tua untuk merasa sepatah ini, dan lucunya semua ini salahku.

Akhirnya dia pun menyerah dan pergi...

Betapa buruknya perasaan ditinggalkan tanpa bisa memperbaiki kesalahanmu, sama sekali tak ada kesempatan untuk kembali.

That feeling of missing someone so much that it would almost feel better if they never existed...

Do you ever find yourself suddenly missing someone so much that it takes your breath away? One minute you're fine, and the next, you're swamped with memories of them. Their voice, their laugh, the things they'd say—it all comes rushing back, and it's so intense it almost knocks you over. And the more you remember, the more you realize how much their absence has left you feeling hurt, hollow. So you force yourself to think about why they're gone, to keep yourself from falling apart....

Drink

Why do people drink alcohol it tastes disgusting?

you don’t drink it for the taste. u drink shit like apple juice for the taste. you drink alcohol to get rid of the bad taste that every awful person in your life has left

Mencintai Terlalu Dalam

Kadang, ketika kita mencintai seseorang terlalu dalam, kau jadi lupa, bahwa engkau pun seorang yang istimewa. Dan itu, kelak, terasa menyakitkan.

~Langit Bara Lajuardi

Heart doesn’t know how to leave.

I’m staying because my HEART doesn’t know how to leave. 

I’m not waiting for a PROMISE or a GUARANTEE, 

I’m here because something in ME tells me it’s WORTH IT. 

I’m holding on not because I’m WEAK, but because HOPE is STRONGER THAN DOUBT. 

Maybe I’m a fool but if I loving her, means fighting for even the smallest chance then that’s battle I’m willing to face everyday. 

It’s not about what I get, it’s about what I feel and right now my HEART wants to stay it’s not about winning or losing it's about having the courage to stay

when walking away would be easier...

It's okay floo… they didn’t believe in you. And maybe… they never will. 

But the hardest part isn’t their doubt… 

it’s knowing that you gave everything… and it still wasn’t enough.

Broken Heart

Uhh.. never thought, at this age I would feel so broken

your heart is hurt... 

sometime it feels like the weight of it will never lift

like the ache is carved too deep to heal

but here's the true, you're stronger than the pain

every scar every tear is proof that you survived

it's oke to feel broken

it's oke to not have the answers

but remember, even the heavies storms pass

your heart will find it's way through the darkness

and went it does you will realise tha the hurt didn't break you

it make you stronger even when you didn't feel it

take your time

heal in your own way

because even the shattered hearts can still beat again...

Hurt

It’s okay to speak up. 

It’s okay to feel hurt and let it out. 

Some people are masters at twisting the truth, making you feel like you’re wrong for reacting.

They turn your pain into “drama,” make you doubt your own feelings, 

and paint you as “crazy” for simply defending yourself. 

But don’t let anyone silence your truth. 

You’re not overreacting… 

you’re just finally standing up for yourself.

Lupa Rasanya Patah

Yah... saat kericuhan mereda... sakitnya baru terasa. Seperti sesuatu yang diremas di dada.

Lupa rasanya patah...