The good past, the bad past

The past, the good parts and bad, is there for a reason, every element of it has had a hand in who I am today. I am to into reminiscing to leave everything in the past.
The present is excellent, and I usually love enjoying it, but there are certain times where it’s just better if I have something to distract myself with other then what’s happening at the present time.
And I think about the future WAY to much to ever stop. The future is such a grand mystery, and I take pleasure in trying to figure out parts of that mystery, or at least have a basic plan for my life. I guess I plan to much to leave the future in the future.
This is as close as I’m ever going to get to this goal which is why I give up. I’m just not cut out to be someone who lives in the moment all the time, more like when it’s appropriate, I can get very caught up in a moment, but sometimes I just can’t get myself to do it.
Ok, I’m now officially rambling. Good luck to you all! Just because I can’t, or maybe don’t want to, accomplish this goal, doesn’t mean it’s not a fabulous one!

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