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Drdrdrdrdrdr... Hape bergetar. Matikan rokok.
"Halo"
"Floo..." suara yang sama.
"Kamu, Dhi...?" bibir bergetar. Jantung berderap.
"Iya" Sunyi yang canggung, "Sebelas tahun ya?"
"Mmh, Lebih. Kemana saja?"
"Sembunyi""‘Dari?"
"Dunia. Semua"
Hening sesaat.
"Termasuk dari aku?"
Kamu memilih diam

It's Me.. Just Me.

The name, I’m me, who are you? I tell things the way they are.
I cut straight to the point. I’m me, and will always be myself.
I don't try to act like someone else, I don't try to dress like someone else,
I’m me, if you don't like it then just leave me alone. I don't care about what others think of me.

I’m happy just being me, I don't want to be anyone else.
I’m unique, One of a kind. I’m me, no one can be me. I’m me, myself,
Not you, her, them or anyone. I’m me, take it or leave it.

I a m me because I dress the way I wanna dress and speak the way I wanna speak Iam me because I walk with my head held high I sometimes believe I can touch the sky…Iam me because the way I present my self is the way I wanna be represented something I call Self Expression… my flaws Is some what skin deep… only can be seen in me and you not being superman my flaws go un seen.

I'am me because my opinion is what matter to me. I strive to get to the top no matter if it breaks me or make me. I'am Me, because what you say I can't do I will prove you wrong and do the exact opposite…

I'am Me, because when you say girl like you hahaha nah.. I am just being me. With that said I'am Me, a girl who live life not caring if I go unseen because I'am ME…

Unless you’ve lived my life don’t judge me because you don’t know never have & never will know every little thing & detail about me.


Pict by : Fernando Diaz

A wonderful thing

Coming out is a wonderful thing – but it’s not something you have to do do today, tomorrow or even this year. The most important thing about coming out: Only do it when you’re ready. Listen to your heart and you’ll know when it’s time...

You’ll Never Believe What May Is…

Save money, Save time,
Minimizes stress, Cure headaches,
Hurt nobody,
Anger the pope.... SEX.

Yup it's true... :D


Better sleep. A sexier physique. Stronger immunity. Sound like the effects of the latest wonder drug? Nope, it's just the many physical benefits of having a satisfying sexual relationship.
And all this time you were just making love because it was fun! If you're looking for more reasons to get romantic, consider the following:

1. You're getting a good workout. Would you rather run 75 miles or have sex three times a week for one year? While both burn the same number of calories (about 7,500), one is decidedly more pleasurable than the other. Regular sex - which burns approximately 150 calories in a half-hour -- is regular exercise. You'll have all the same benefits of spending that time in the gym, including improved circulation, lower cholesterol and the release of feel-good endorphins.

2. You won't get sick. According to research by Dr. Carl Charnetski, professor of psychology at Wilkes University in Wilkes-Barre, Pa and co-author of Feeling Good is Good For You, people who reported one or two sexual episodes per week enjoyed higher levels of Immunoglobin A, the antibody that helps fend of illness.

3. You'll feel happier. In addition to the obvious boost in satisfaction, feeling secure in your relationship leads to a greater sense of well-being. Women in particular may see even more benefits. Researchers at the State University of New York at Albany found that women who regularly came into contact with semen were significantly less depressed than those who didn't get a dose of those potent sex hormones and naturally occurring opiates.

4. You'll reduce stress. People who get it on regularly report that they handle stress better. The release of climax will get even the most anxious lover totally relaxed, and you know you'll sleep better.

5. You'll live longer (and look younger!). A British study of 1,000 men found that those who had at least two orgasms per week had half the death rate of those who indulged less than once a month. Sex can make you look younger, too, according to neuropsychologist David Weeks, who found that couple who reported having sex an average of four times per week looked approximately 10 years younger than they really were.

So.. lets have some sex honey.... ;)

Discrimination, Hatred, and even Violence

Diskriminasi, kebencian, pelecehan, dalam berbagai tingkat, dari lingkungan straight mungkin bukan hal asing bagi kaum minoritas gay. Bahkan diskriminasi dapat berupa hal sepele seperti gurauan-gurauan yang sebenarnya dapat dikategorikan sebagai pelecehan. Tapi aku pikir kita terlalu fokus menjadi korban dari semua kebencian tersebut, karna terkadang kita lupa bahwa kita pun bisa menjadi pelaku diskriminasi terhadap kaum kita sendiri.
Pagi ini, aku membaca tentang diskriminasi dalam komunitas gay. Mengingatkanku tentang cerita seorang kawan, bagaimana dia diperlakukan dengan sangat buruk oleh orang terdekatnya pemaksaan, pemerasa, penipuan, ancaman membeberkan identitas nya sebagai gay ke keluarga dan lingkungan kerjanya, bahkan kekerasan fisik. Seorang waria berbicara tentang diskriminasi yang dia alami - bukan dari orang straight, tetapi dari dalam lingkungannya.

Kita selalu memperjuangkan persamaan hak pada dunia, menghapus diskriminasi terhadap LGBT. Namun kita seperti menutup mata terhadap hal-hal buruk yang terjadi dalam komunitas kita sendiri.

Menyadari diskriminasi dalam komunitas gay merupakan langkah pertama yang sangat besar dalam mengatasinya. Mungkin hal yang paling efektif dapat kita lakukan adalah memperlakukan satu sama lain - dalam pikiran, kata dan tindakan - sebagai saudara dan saudari kita yang sebenarnya.

Kita semua bisa berbuat lebih baik...

a Note Addressed to You…

It happened in the past. And it happened once. But in your memory, you’re letting it happen over and over again, each and every day. You can’t change that it happened, but you can change that it continues to happen to you.

It’s time to let it go, and no longer haunt yourself with shame, remorse and guilt.

And the truth is, it happened for a reason. Though it may be hard to understand that reason from where you sit in time and space, my vantage point allows for a clearer perspective. Learn the lesson being offered, and allow yourself the freedom to move forward with these simple but powerful words: “I am sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. I thank you.”

Love,

Reasons to Smile

Truth be told – and perhaps very predictably – I don’t really need a reason to smile. I think joy and bliss are our natural state, and that we learn the unhappiness that so many of us experience.

But if you do need a reason to smile, here are six of them:

1. You are loved. If you’re not loved by yourself, you are at least loved by me. And probably a whole bunch of other people to which you mean the world. Best of all, you have the ability to reciprocate that love – and doing so is guaranteed to make you smile.
2. Smiles make new friends. There’s no better way to open yourself to other people than by smiling at strangers. Smiles attract attention, and your smile may spark a new and fulfilling friendship.
3. Because you’re worth it. Not a single one in this wold is more deserving of love, more beautiful, or more magical than you. Knowing that, how can’t you smile?
4. A smile looks good on you. In fact, smiling is my best-kept beauty secret. A radiant smile works with any outfit, any season and any combination of colors or prints. Wear it proud!
5. It’s good for you. Smiling doesn’t just make you more attractive, it reduces stress, boosts your immune system, lowers blood pressure and releases endorphins.
6. Because it’s contagious. Your smile lights up a room – and other people take notice. Your smile helps others connect with their happiness. If you won’t smile for yourself, do it for others.

And I know what you’re thinking, there are certainly a number of reasons not to smile today. You don’t need me to remind you of those. But by focusing on the negative, you’re probably only ensuring a negative mood, attitude and experience.

Why not focus on those things that will lift you up, and align yourself with a more loving and positive energy? The choice, as always, is yours. :-D

Baik-baik Saja

Aahh... butuh bahu untuk bersandar... atau tangan yg mengusap kepalaku... atau kata-kata yang membesarkan hatiku...

"Hai Floo... semuanya akan baik2 saja."

Letter

Dear Floo,

You are the gatekeeper of your life, deciding what goes into – and comes out – of your castle. When anger or hate or negativity try to enter, pull up your drawbridge and engage it not. Anger, hate and negativity can not hurt you without your permission.

Do not let anger, hate or negativity dwell in your castle; they have no home in you.

Love,
~Floo~

Happiness

Money, Relationships, Jobs datang dan pergi dalam hidup. Aku suka menggunakan analogi roller coaster. "When you ride a roller coaster, it’s full of ups and downs."
Kadang-kadang kau memiliki semuanya, dan terkadang kau seperti tak memiliki apapun.

Money, Relationships, Jobs bisa diambil dari kita, hanyalah sebagian kecil dari hal-hal yang bisa membuat kita bahagia. Jika menurutmu kebahagiaan berasal dari itu semua, maka kau mungkin akan berakhir hidup dalam ketakutan salah satu dari mereka akan diambil.

Hidup selalu antara Ups and downs. Hidup ini penuh dengan keduanya. Aku tidak berpikir ini tentang memaksimalkan Ups dan meminimalkan Downs. Aku hanya berpikir bagaimana menerima kehidupan yang ditawarkan dengan antusias, hati yang terbuka dan sukacita.

Jangan menunggu untuk menurunkan berat badan, atau untuk meningkatkan berat badan, untuk memulai hidup sehat, untuk memulai pekerjaan baru, untuk menikah, untuk jatuh cinta, untuk mati, atau dilahirkan kembali... Untuk menjadi bahagia

Tidak ada waktu yang lebih baik untuk bahagia lebih dari sekarang.

Jadi... Hiduplah dan menikmati saat ini...