Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Tanyalah pada hatimu

Seorang kawan berkata...

"Tanyalah pada hatimu, apa yang benar-benar kamu cari. Kesenangan atau Ketenangan...

Dan saat hatimu tau... Kau pun akan tau."

Heart, Don’t Change My Mind

Have you ever experienced staying in a relationship that you know is not good for you, and yet you stayed anyway? I’m sure lots of women out there have experienced this “heart over mind” situation; their mind is telling them to let go, but their heart is pleading for them to hold on. It’s not an easy situation to be in. There’s always an internal struggle going on that keeps one from having peace of mind. It’s really exhausting having to deal with that struggle each and every day. And yet because most women are scared to lose the partner in their lives, they choose to follow their heart instead.

There’s this song by Diana Ross, which is the exact same title of this post: Heart, Don’t Change My Mind. I really love this song, it’s sad and heartbreaking, and I know those who find themselves in this situation will be able to relate to this song. It really is hard letting go of someone that you have loved for so long. You’ve given everything that you have into the relationship, everything that you are, and yet it still won’t work out and you still end up with a broken heart.

What most women fail to consider is that some relationships are really not meant to be. But because of a wide variety of reasons, they force it. They think that if they just hang in there, hold on, things are going to change for the better. Wrong. If a relationship is not meant to be, there is nothing that you can do to change that. You can stay, but you’ll be miserable. What you can do, is accept reality, and move on. It’s easier said than done, but that’s the truth.

Okay, so your mind is all made up, and you’re ready to do the right thing, but what do you do when your heart refuses to cooperate? It’s not going to be an easy task, you have to have enough courage to mute your heart and listen to reason. It’s never easy, because it hurts like hell. But it’s the only way to be truly free. It’s no use staying in a relationship when you know in your heart that’s it’s not meant to be. Your heart knows it, but refuses to accept it; and this is never good. You are trapped in the struggle, and if you’re not careful, you might not be able to get out.

Bottom line is, know when to follow your heart and know when to listen to your mind. It’s very important that you learn how to control your emotions. It’s important that you own your emotions, because if you allow them, they will consume you and control you, and it won’t be pretty.

Monday, September 20, 2010

Know You No More

I could read you like a book,
Letter by letter.
I knew you by heart,
Your every scrap of thought .
We were inseparable,
Saw each other everyday.

But then I left.
I didn't have the choice;
And don't tell me we always have the choice;
We don't always have the choice.

When I came back
I saw you,
But didn't recognize you.
I knew you,
But didn't know you.

At least
Not anymore.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

My heart’s not broken. Just damaged, temporarily.

My heart’s not broken. Just damaged, temporarily. It’s not anything too big to surmount. But nor is it too small to overlook.

Salah satu hal terbaik tentang hubungan jarak jauh adalah bahwa kita benar-benar belajar untuk menghargai waktu dan rasa syukur.

Dan bila waktu berpisah datang, rasanya sangat berbeda harus mengucapkan selamat tinggal.
Aku merasa seperti habis diamputasi setelah operasi. Ada luka yang tertinggal dan ada yang hilang.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Alejandro Sanz & The Corrs- The Hardest Day





One more day, one last look
Before I leave it all behind
And play the role that's meant for us
That said we'd say goodbye

cuentame otra vez
si no es el mismo el sol de ayer el que se esconde hoy
para ti para mi para nadie mas se a inventado el mal

If I promise to believe will you believe
That there's nowhere that we'd rather be
Nowhere describes where we are
I've no choice, I love you leave,
Love you wave goodbye

And all I ever wanted was to stay
And nothing in this world's gonna change, change

Never wanna wake up from this night
Never wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life
The hardest day of my life

Ruegame que te clase unda
envuelto en un atardecer de vida
para ti para mi para nadie mas se a inventado el mal

But I never will regret a single day
Y ninguno sabia muy bien que hacer
What I'm feeling for you
aquella noche noche
I will always love you leave,
Love you wave goodbye

ieieiei este, and all I ever wanted was to stay
maldito atardecer
Nothing in this world's gonna change...

Never wanna wake up from this night
Never wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
I never knew I'd ever feel this way
I feel for you...

Heart, Don’t Change My Mind

Have you ever experienced staying in a relationship that you know is not good for you, and yet you stayed anyway? I’m sure lots of women out there have experienced this “heart over mind” situation; their mind is telling them to let go, but their heart is pleading for them to hold on. It’s not an easy situation to be in. There’s always an internal struggle going on that keeps one from having peace of mind. It’s really exhausting having to deal with that struggle each and every day. And yet because most women are scared to lose the men in their lives, they choose to follow their heart instead.

There’s this song by Diana Ross, which is the exact same title of this post: Heart, Don’t Change My Mind. I really love this song, it’s sad and heartbreaking, and I know those who find themselves in this situation will be able to relate to this song. It really IS hard letting go of someone that you have loved for so long. You’ve given everything that you have into the relationship, everything that you are, and yet it still won’t work out and you still end up with a broken heart.

What most women fail to consider is that some relationships are really not meant to be. But because of a wide variety of reasons, they force it. They think that if they just hang in there, hold on, things are going to change for the better. Wrong. If a relationship is not meant to be, there is nothing that you can do to change that. You can stay, but you’ll be miserable. What you can do, is accept reality, and move on. It’s easier said than done, but that’s the truth.

Okay, so your mind is all made up, and you’re ready to do the right thing, but what do you do when your heart refuses to cooperate? It’s not going to be an easy task, you have to have enough courage to mute your heart and listen to reason. It’s never easy, because it hurts like hell. But it’s the only way to be truly free. It’s no use staying in a relationship when you know in your heart that’s it’s not meant to be. Your heart knows it, but refuses to accept it; and this is never good. You are trapped in the struggle, and if you’re not careful, you might not be able to get out.

Bottom line is, know when to follow your heart and know when to listen to your mind. It’s very important that you learn how to control your emotions. It’s important that you own your emotions, because if you allow them, they will consume you and control you, and it won’t be pretty.

a hug


As simple as this is, I always cherish strong and long hugs. There’s something about a hug that just makes me feel loved. Whether it’s a close friend, girlfriend or even my cat; I can always use a hug....

Reuni

Tidak perlu satu reuni lagi untuk mengingatkanku seperti apa kehidupan aku yang lalu, bukan aku tidak merindukan kalian kawan. Bercanda layaknya anak umur belasan, ber haha hihi mengenang waktu lalu.

Menyesakkan bila di ingat, Bukan karna aku masih terluka, aku hanya merasa tidak bangga dengan apa yang aku lakukan. Melarikan diri...? Bukan, aku hanya ingin sendiri.

Sekarang... biarkan aku bersama kehidupanku, karna aku sudah tau di mana tempatku. Diantara orang yang membuatku menjadi diriku sendiri. Dunia semu...? tp setidaknya diantara mereka ada orang yang aku cintai.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Loveless

My name is Breathless
I can’t breathe when you are near
My name is Memoryless
I have no memories, only fear
My name is Bondless
There can’t be a bond between you and me
My name is Friendless
I don’t have any friends as you can see
My name is Sleepless
I just stay awake and think of you
My name is Painless
There’s only emptiness and nothing you can do
My name is Tearless
There are no tears left to cry
My name is Trustless
Can’t trust anyone just want to die
My name is Skinless
There’s no outside to show me
My name is Nameless
There’s just nothing I can be
My name is Warless
I don’t want to fight
My name is Endless
I want to be forever by your side
But I will destroy everything we’ve built together

My name is Loveless...

Given

I thought that love would be softer, sweeter and kinder. I found out with my first love that those thoughts were just a happy delusion. Fall...