Hurt, broken, is an understatement. My whole life came to a halt. How did this one person have so much power over my mood. I don't understand how I lost myself. I tried to forget I tried to let go I tried to do no contact but each day got harder and harder. 

There wasn't one moment where I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. So I contacted her and I've lowered my standard for her. I became this person I don't even know. I was believing what she was saying instead of seeing her actions for what it was. Do I still see her? Yes. She's like a drug now. When she calls my heart flutters my face smiles. When I don't hear from her I'm low super low, when she doesn't answer I immediately cry because I feel like she'll never come back. But more because who am I why am I this girl now? What is wrong with me