Rindu

Rinduku di penggal jarak... bukannya mati, malah tak terkendali beranak pinak.

Hujan

Mengertilah Hujan. Saya tahu kau cantik dengan bulir2mu yg jatuh di jendela... tp saya membutuhkan matahari hari ini....

Bisu tuli

Untuk apa puisi, kau tak mengerti. Seakan bisu dan tuli...

I'm a big apple pie...

By : a Pie

Hey, you! Yeah, you. I see you standing over there with the hungry look in your eye. Something bothering you? Something gnawing at your gut? Huh? You want a piece of me, is that it? You want a piece of me?

Oh, you do, do you? You think you're a big man, huh? You got a big mouth, I'll give you that, but do you have the guts? Well, you're going to have a belly full of me before this is over, that's for sure.

Oh, you're a real big man, all right. Real big. You know something? I don't think you've got the stomach for this kind of work. I think you're going to have to run and get somebody to help you. You're going to need five of your friends to finish me off. You bit off more than you can chew this time, buddy. I'm too much for just one man!

You want a piece of me, come get a piece, pal. You'll be lying down for a while after this, I'll tell you right now. Lying down moaning. You'll be feeling this tomorrow, big shot. I may look sweet, but don't let that fool you. I'm the kind of sweet that'll knock your friggin' teeth right out. I may look cherry, but I'm still too big for you.

What's that? What's that you got there? A knife? What, you going to cut me? You are, aren't you? You're going to try and cut me to pieces! Better make 'em little pieces, buster. A little piece of me is all you can handle, tough guy, with your big bad knife. Well, I been cut before, you can see that for yourself. I ain't afraid. Bring your little knife over here. You're going to need it if you want to get a piece of me. Ain't no other way for a guy like you who's too damn scared to use his hands.

C'mon. You want to find out what I'm made of? This is your big chance! Take a seat at the table, big boy! I'm servin' it up hot! C'mon! Step up to the plate, buddy!

Oh, yeah! Pow, right in the kisser! I'm up in your face now, you betcha. How you like that, huh? How you like that? Oh, you didn't like that, did you? Well, too bad, 'cause there's a lot more where that came from! Not such a big talker after a mouthful of me, are you? Looks like you got a bit more than you bargained for there, doesn't it?

Oh, now look at that. Did I mess up your nice white shirt? Huh? Did I? Well, don't start cryin' yet, pal, 'cause there's going to be a real big mess by the time you're done with me. It'll be a while before you get cleaned up. I'm going to put you down for a nice long nap. You'll be out for quite a while, I bet.

What? Fruity?! Who the hell you callin' fruity? And so what if I am, huh? Christ, I can't help the way I was made, goddamnit. And you know what? I was just minding my own business over here 'til you came over, man. I think you like it that I'm fruity. I think it makes you feel a little strange when you look at me.

That's it, isn't it? You want me. You came over here because, deep down in your gut, you want a piece of something fruity! I think you came looking for a little taste of something different, and now you can't handle it. Well, I may be fruity, but at least I'm no goddamn cream puff.

That's it. You're done! You're through! I was too much for you, wasn't I? Wasn't I? Admit it, pal, I was way too big for you. Well, you may think you're done with me, but I ain't done with you. Hope you didn't have any plans for tonight, 'cause I'm going to go right through you. I'm going to go through you like Sherman through Georgia.

Man, I wouldn't want to be you tomorrow morning...

Am I a lesbian?

At some point every lesbian asks herself the question: Am I a lesbian?

But many heterosexual and bisexual women ask themselves the same question and come away with a different answer. So, how do you know if you are a lesbian or if you're just curious?

If I only had a dollar for every time I've been asked this question, I would be a rich woman today! Struggling with one's sexual attractions is very common and not just with young people. I hear just as often from women who have been married 20 years or more. But at young age, relax and give yourself time to explore your feelings...

I know many of you are looking for cut and dried ways to determine your sexual orientation. Perhaps a quiz you can take. If only it were that easy!! Unfortunately, determining your sexual orientation is not that simple. It is something that will take time and self-reflection to determine. Talking to a therapist or a lesbian coming out group may help.

Some women identify as lesbian after having feelings for one woman. Others wait to label themselves only afters years of attractions and relationships with other women. Some will remain attracted to both men and women and call themselves bisexual.

The important thing to remember is that your sexual orientation is not something you can choose. You can, however, choose to act on it or not. If you are happily married and find yourself attracted to a female friend, it might be quite alarming to discover that you are bisexual. But it does not mean that you need to act on those feelings.

Okay, having said that. How do you know if you are a lesbian or not? Consider the following:
# Are your feelings for women stronger than your feelings for men?
# Do you get more excited about the idea of kissing a man or kissing a woman?
# Who do you see yourself settling down with in the future?
# Are you more physically attracted to men's or women's bodies?
# Who do you fantasize about more, men or women?

Answering these questions may help you figure out what your sexual orientation is. You may be lesbian, bisexual or straight. My best advice to you is to be patient with yourself. Whereas it is empowering to label yourself, the process of being sure is much more important.

Remember whether you are lesbian, straight or bisexual you will be most happy and fulfilled if you live a life true to yourself.

Puisiku

Puisiku suram, sekusam nisan pualam...

'......'

You keep crying, crying, crying, till you cannot see at all. You keep crying, crying, crying, till you cannot breathe at all. What do you do when you're alone? Out of control, Now on your own

Don't cry, its time to be a big girl now... and bigs girl don't cry...

Complicated

Hidup yang rumit, tak berhak menginginkan apapun...

"06.37"

The Important Things in Life.

Seorang profesor filsafat berdiri di depan kelas dengan beberapa item di atas meja di depannya. Ketika kelas dimulai, tanpa kata ia mengambil sebuah guci mayones sangat besar dan kosong dan mulai mengisinya dengan batu, sekitar 2 inci.
Dia kemudian bertanya kepada siswa apakah toples itu penuh. Mereka sepakat bahwa bahwa toples itu penuh.
Jadi profesor kemudian mengambil sekotak kerikil dan menuangkan mereka ke dalam toples. Ia mengguncang toples pelan. Kerikil, tentu saja, meluncur ke dalam wilayah terbuka di antara batu-batu.
Dia kemudian bertanya kepada siswa lagi jika toples itu sudah penuh. Mereka pun sepakat bahwa bahwa toples itu penuh.
Sang profesor mengambil sekotak pasir dan menuangkannya ke dalam toples tersebut. Tentu saja, pasir mengisi segala sesuatu yang lain. Dia kemudian bertanya sekali lagi apakah toples itu penuh. Para siswa menjawab dengan suara bulat "Ya."
"Sekarang," kata profesor, "Saya ingin Anda untuk mengenali bahwa tabung ini mewakili hidup Anda. Batuan adalah hal yang penting - keluarga Anda, Partner Anda, kesehatan Anda, hal-hal yang jika segala sesuatu yang lain telah hilang dan hanya ada mereka mereka, kehidupan Anda akan tetap penuh.

Kerikil adalah hal-hal lain yang penting - seperti pekerjaan Anda, rumah Anda, mobil Anda.

Pasir adalah segala sesuatu yang lain. Hal-hal kecil.
"Jika Anda memasukkan pasir ke dalam botol yang pertama," lanjutnya "tidak ada ruang untuk kerikil atau batuan. Hal yang sama berlaku untuk hidup Anda. Jika Anda menghabiskan waktu Anda dan energi pada hal-hal kecil, Anda tidak akan pernah memiliki ruang untuk hal-hal yang penting bagi Anda.

Perhatikan hal-hal yang penting bagi kebahagiaan Anda. Bermain dengan anak-anak Anda. Ajak partner hidup Anda keluar sekedar berjalan-jalan berdua. Akan selalu ada waktu untuk pergi bekerja, membersihkan rumah, memberikan pesta makan malam dan memperbaiki pelepasan.

Jaga batu pertama - hal-hal yang benar-benar penting. Tetapkan prioritas Anda. Sisanya hanya pasir. "

a smile

I define a smile as a simple and free gesture that can brighten your day – or the day of the people around you.

A smile can spark a conversation or help you make a new friend. A smile can attract people to you and ignite a new relationship.

A smile is the single most important thing you can do to enhance your outward beauty.

A smile can transmit a message of 10,000 words in a split second.

A smile can defuse even the most tense of conflicts.

A smile can melt hearts.

If a butterfly gently flapping its wings in the jungles of Madagascar can indirectly cause a Typhoon off the coast of Jakarta, then imagine what your smile can do. Small actions have big consequences. So today, a gentle reminder to flex the most important muscle you’ve got: Smile. Both at yourself and at others; it can change the world.

Do you think a simple smile can change the world? Has it changed yours?

sekali-kali curat...

Akhir Oktober berarti waktunya Halloween dengan pesta dan perayaan lainnya. Kostum, laba-laba, hantu, labu, topeng, permen, dan banyak pesta. Tetapi halloween tidak melulu tentang semua kegilaan dan hingar bingar. Mungkin bisa menjadi waktu yang tepat untuk mengingat apa yang tersembunyi di belakang kostum dan topeng yang kita pakai, tidak hanya pada saat Halloween - tetapi yang kita pakai setiap hari.

Banyak faktor yang mendorong dan menarik kita menjadi seseorang yang berbeda dan berlawanan, menjadi seseorang yang mungkin bukan diri kita sendiri. Lebih mudah untuk menjadi orang lain - untuk menjadi seseorang yang orang tua inginkan, atau yang masyarakat inginkan. Tapi jauh lebih sulit untuk mengikuti suara hati kita sendiri, dan melakukan apa yang terasa benar - bahkan jika itu berarti harus berenang melawan arus di sekitar kita.

Dan akhirnya kostum dan topeng adalah pilihan pertama untuk menyelesaikannya. Pikirkan saat ketika sengaja menyembunyikan orientasi seksual kita. Atau jika berada dalam hubungan dengan seseorang yang tidak kita cintai. Pikirkan semua waktu yang kita habiskan hanya untuk menyembunyikan diri kita sendiri.

Saat aku berbicara dengan seorang perempuan di taman. A stright women tentu saja, dan bagaimana aku melihat diriku sendiri berubah menjadi lebih feminim, menjadi bukan diriku sendiri. Aku sedang berusaha menyamar sebagai wanita yang berbeda. Tapi itu kostum. Dan itu bukan aku.

But this Halloween, I want to be me. And as it turns out, it’s the hardest – and most important – someone that any of us could hope to be.

God has given you one face, and you make yourself another. -William Shakespeare

How would you live today differently?

Bagaimana jika indera kita telah menipu kita? Bagaimana jika dunia nyata, penuh sihir dan kemungkinan, bukan yang dapat kita lihat, tahan, rasa, bau atau dengar?

Bagaimana jika tidak ada kesalahan, dan bahwa segala sesuatu dalam hidup kita terjadi karena itu perlu terjadi?

Bagaimana jika kita dan musuh kita jauh lebih mirip daripada yang pernah kita bisa sadari, dan bahwa ketika kita melihat orang asing di jalan, kita melihat diri kita dalam bentuk yang berbeda? Bagaimana jika energi yang sama menghidupkan kita semua, dan bahwa kita semua adalah saudara-saudara - jika tidak dengan darah - dalam roh?

Bagaimana jika daya yang sebenarnya adalah lahir dari cinta?

Bagaimana jika kita tidak bisa gagal? Dan bahkan salah langkah kita apa yang disebut pengalaman belajar yang diperlukan dalam evolusi pribadi hidup kita?

Bagaimana jika kita mendengarkan lagu di dalam hatimu dan dinyanyikan dengan keras melalui pemikiran dan tindakan?

Bagaimana jika lahir hanya sebanyak ilusi begitupun dengan kematian? Bagaimana jika waktu adalah sebuah penemuan dari pengalaman manusia, dan bahwa luasnya ruang dan kosmos itu jauh lebih kecil dari kepala peniti?

Bagaimana jika kita mengambil pil merah bukan pil biru - dan melihat betapa dalam lubang kelinci ini pergi?

Bagaimana jika semua yang kita lihat di luar sana sebenarnya terjadi di sini?

Bagaimana jika kita adalah pusat alam semesta kita? Dan bagaimana jika kita memiliki lebih potensi dari impian terliar yang bisa kita bayangkan?

Bagaimana jika ada sesuatu yang bisa kita lakukan - dengan menggabungkan bakat unik kita dengan orang akan lebih baik bagi dunia? Dan bagaimana jika kita bisa menggunakan karunia-karunia dan talenta untuk mengangkat seluruh dunia?
Then how would you live today differently?

Seeing someone you love, love someone else

Well, that's what I'm gonna talk about today.

Firstly, no one ever said, falling in love is easy. It's even harder when you have to go through a rough patch. Once you have really loved someone it is hard to get them off your mind even when they are with someone else. Yeah, most people I know would say..Yes, it is the hardest thing, because when we love someone then we expcet that she should only love you and when you find that she is in love with someone else...it breaks your heart on the jagged edges of reality.

But life doesn't stop there. I mean, sure u can like a person, even "love" them, but what the heck, if you've done all you can and the other person just can't see that or see's that and still doesn't want to be with you, then what can you do? (no, i'm not asking.. i'm telling you.. "What can you do?")

Especially girls go "What the hell?!!! I did all this for her and she just walked off with that girl???". Look here's the thing.. if this is you're typical reaction then, guess you wern't really in love with the person. I'm no expert on love myself...but I know 2 kinds of love. One kind of love is what you get when someone wants to just be with you for the sake of being with you, but the minute, they see something better, it's over. The other kind is unconditional love. No matter what, she will always be there and you know it.

It's pretty difficult on your part especially if you already see a future with this somebody that you really love. but if you really love this somebody you will think about her own happiness even if means you sacrificing the most, it's called unselfish love. remember that everything happens for a reason. maybe this somebody is not the person that's really meant for you. someday, somewhere you'll find that special someone who will love you deeply and sincerely.

As far as I'm concerned, the hardest thing to really do, is when the one you really love, has passed away. And I'm not talking out of my hat, I'm talking out of experience. Ever since then, not a single day has gone by, when I don't wish she was alive, even if it ment that I'm not the one she's with.

So the bottom line is, If you really like someone and they don't feel the same way, It's not really you're problem, sure it's gonna hurt like hell for sometime, but you can only do so much. You can ask the person out a couple of times, and if they don't respond or back out when you least expect it, my sincere advice, move on. Again, It's not out of my hat, it's out of experience. I've done it a couple of times myself and it's happened to me a couple of times too.. fair game.

Me, I'm almost jaded, when it comes to stuff like this. Don't get me wrong, it's not that this has happened to me over n over n over..but the thing with me is, I guess I've never been into stuff like this after certain "incidents". Certain issues like, trust, loyalty and sincerity are all questionable, when it comes to the fairer sex. I'm not saying that all women are like that...just the one's I've been with.

But always remember, when you tell someone you love them, make sure it's for reasons that can't be seen in the mirror.

In my sleep

"In my sleep, we have time to play
Blowing bubbles on a warm, pretty day
My dream-bubbles, they never do break,
That’s true of my love, asleep or awake!"

Is being gay or lesbian a choice?

Kebanyakan seorang gay dan lesbian yakin bahwa menjadi lesbian atau gay bukanlah suatu pilihan. Organisasi ilmiah Kebanyakan juga percaya bahwa homoseksualitas bukan pilihan, faktor biologi lah yang memainkan perananan penting. The National Mental Health Association mengatakan, "Sebagian besar peneliti percaya bahwa orientasi seksual adalah suatu yang kompleks, dan faktor biologi. Ini berarti bahwa banyak orang yang dilahirkan dengan orientasi seksual mereka, atau bahwa itu dibentuk pada usia dini. "

Tidak ada yang benar-benar tahu mengapa beberapa orang lesbian atau gay dan yang lain lurus atau biseksual. Tapi apa yang kita tahu adalah bahwa homoseksualitas telah ada sepanjang sejarah.

Tapi Gay Menjadi Pilihan?

Tentu saja mereka yang percaya homoseksualitas adalah dosa mengatakan itu pilihan. Bahkan beberapa lesbian dan gay yakin bahwa menjadi gay adalah pilihan. Namun, kebanyakan percaya bahwa mereka dilahirkan sebagai gay atau lesbian seperti halnya aku.

Yang kita tahu adalah bahwa terapi yang mencoba mengubah seorang gay menjadi lurus memiliki tingkat keberhasilan yang sangat kecil. Kadang-kadang orang mengubah perilaku mereka, tetapi daya tarik masih ada. Seperti halnya bila kita kidal dipaksa untuk menggunakan tangan kanannya. Dia belajar untuk mengubah perilaku, tapi ini tidak mengubah fakta bahwa dia kidal.

Yang paling tepat adalah pilihan bersikap menjadi gay, lesbian, atau biseksual. Kita dapat memilih untuk menyembunyikan orientasi seksual kita, atau bahkan terlibat dalam hubungan heteroseksual, tetapi itu tidak berarti kita tidak lesbian, atau biseksual.

Apa yang kita tahu adalah bahwa orang-orang yang keluar dan menerima orientasi seksual mereka hidup lebih bahagia dan lebih memenuhi kehidupan dari pada mereka yang mencoba menekan perasaan mereka atau menjalani hidup mereka secara sembunyi-sembunyi.

So guys... born lesbian or gay, follow the ray. born straight refuse to hate... then we can live in peace and harmony....

We do what we do, and I do what I do

In some ways, it feels like we’ve all come so far. Some countries and states allow for marriage equality, more and more nondiscrimination policies include sexual orientation and gender identity, and an increasing number of LGBT individuals are letting their flames burn bright openly.

We do what we do, and I do what I do, to make this world a more loving and inclusive place. We do it all so crap like discrimination doesn’t happen.

The trajectory of progress must bend faster and harder in the favor of love and equality. And all of us need to step up to the plate.

Memaki...

Boleh donk aku memaki... satu kali ini saja...

I fucking hate you! Fuck!....!!!!
Hehehehe..... risih buat yg baca.... ya sudah....

Tanyalah pada hatimu

Seorang kawan berkata...

"Tanyalah pada hatimu, apa yang benar-benar kamu cari. Kesenangan atau Ketenangan...

Dan saat hatimu tau... Kau pun akan tau."

Heart, Don’t Change My Mind

Have you ever experienced staying in a relationship that you know is not good for you, and yet you stayed anyway? I’m sure lots of women out there have experienced this “heart over mind” situation; their mind is telling them to let go, but their heart is pleading for them to hold on. It’s not an easy situation to be in. There’s always an internal struggle going on that keeps one from having peace of mind. It’s really exhausting having to deal with that struggle each and every day. And yet because most women are scared to lose the partner in their lives, they choose to follow their heart instead.

There’s this song by Diana Ross, which is the exact same title of this post: Heart, Don’t Change My Mind. I really love this song, it’s sad and heartbreaking, and I know those who find themselves in this situation will be able to relate to this song. It really is hard letting go of someone that you have loved for so long. You’ve given everything that you have into the relationship, everything that you are, and yet it still won’t work out and you still end up with a broken heart.

What most women fail to consider is that some relationships are really not meant to be. But because of a wide variety of reasons, they force it. They think that if they just hang in there, hold on, things are going to change for the better. Wrong. If a relationship is not meant to be, there is nothing that you can do to change that. You can stay, but you’ll be miserable. What you can do, is accept reality, and move on. It’s easier said than done, but that’s the truth.

Okay, so your mind is all made up, and you’re ready to do the right thing, but what do you do when your heart refuses to cooperate? It’s not going to be an easy task, you have to have enough courage to mute your heart and listen to reason. It’s never easy, because it hurts like hell. But it’s the only way to be truly free. It’s no use staying in a relationship when you know in your heart that’s it’s not meant to be. Your heart knows it, but refuses to accept it; and this is never good. You are trapped in the struggle, and if you’re not careful, you might not be able to get out.

Bottom line is, know when to follow your heart and know when to listen to your mind. It’s very important that you learn how to control your emotions. It’s important that you own your emotions, because if you allow them, they will consume you and control you, and it won’t be pretty.

Know You No More

I could read you like a book,
Letter by letter.
I knew you by heart,
Your every scrap of thought .
We were inseparable,
Saw each other everyday.

But then I left.
I didn't have the choice;
And don't tell me we always have the choice;
We don't always have the choice.

When I came back
I saw you,
But didn't recognize you.
I knew you,
But didn't know you.

At least
Not anymore.

My heart’s not broken. Just damaged, temporarily.

My heart’s not broken. Just damaged, temporarily. It’s not anything too big to surmount. But nor is it too small to overlook.

Salah satu hal terbaik tentang hubungan jarak jauh adalah bahwa kita benar-benar belajar untuk menghargai waktu dan rasa syukur.
Dan bila waktu berpisah datang, rasanya sangat berbeda harus mengucapkan selamat tinggal. Aku merasa seperti habis diamputasi setelah operasi. Ada luka yang tertinggal dan ada yang hilang.

Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri, Mohon maaf lahir dan batin...

Alejandro Sanz & The Corrs- The Hardest Day

One more day, one last look
Before I leave it all behind
And play the role that's meant for us
That said we'd say goodbye

cuentame otra vez
si no es el mismo el sol de ayer el que se esconde hoy
para ti para mi para nadie mas se a inventado el mal

If I promise to believe will you believe
That there's nowhere that we'd rather be
Nowhere describes where we are
I've no choice, I love you leave,
Love you wave goodbye

And all I ever wanted was to stay
And nothing in this world's gonna change, change

Never wanna wake up from this night
Never wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
Leaving you, the hardest day of my life
The hardest day of my life

Ruegame que te clase unda
envuelto en un atardecer de vida
para ti para mi para nadie mas se a inventado el mal

But I never will regret a single day
Y ninguno sabia muy bien que hacer
What I'm feeling for you
aquella noche noche
I will always love you leave,
Love you wave goodbye

ieieiei este, and all I ever wanted was to stay
maldito atardecer
Nothing in this world's gonna change...

Never wanna wake up from this night
Never wanna leave this moment
Waiting for you only, only you
Never gonna forget every single thing you do
When loving you is my finest hour
I never knew I'd ever feel this way
I feel for you...

Heart, Don’t Change My Mind

Have you ever experienced staying in a relationship that you know is not good for you, and yet you stayed anyway? I’m sure lots of women out there have experienced this “heart over mind” situation; their mind is telling them to let go, but their heart is pleading for them to hold on. It’s not an easy situation to be in. There’s always an internal struggle going on that keeps one from having peace of mind. It’s really exhausting having to deal with that struggle each and every day. And yet because most women are scared to lose the men in their lives, they choose to follow their heart instead.

There’s this song by Diana Ross, which is the exact same title of this post: Heart, Don’t Change My Mind. I really love this song, it’s sad and heartbreaking, and I know those who find themselves in this situation will be able to relate to this song. It really IS hard letting go of someone that you have loved for so long. You’ve given everything that you have into the relationship, everything that you are, and yet it still won’t work out and you still end up with a broken heart.

What most women fail to consider is that some relationships are really not meant to be. But because of a wide variety of reasons, they force it. They think that if they just hang in there, hold on, things are going to change for the better. Wrong. If a relationship is not meant to be, there is nothing that you can do to change that. You can stay, but you’ll be miserable. What you can do, is accept reality, and move on. It’s easier said than done, but that’s the truth.

Okay, so your mind is all made up, and you’re ready to do the right thing, but what do you do when your heart refuses to cooperate? It’s not going to be an easy task, you have to have enough courage to mute your heart and listen to reason. It’s never easy, because it hurts like hell. But it’s the only way to be truly free. It’s no use staying in a relationship when you know in your heart that’s it’s not meant to be. Your heart knows it, but refuses to accept it; and this is never good. You are trapped in the struggle, and if you’re not careful, you might not be able to get out.

Bottom line is, know when to follow your heart and know when to listen to your mind. It’s very important that you learn how to control your emotions. It’s important that you own your emotions, because if you allow them, they will consume you and control you, and it won’t be pretty.

a hug

As simple as this is, I always cherish strong and long hugs. There’s something about a hug that just makes me feel loved. Whether it’s a close friend, girlfriend or even my cat; I can always use a hug....

Reuni

Tidak perlu satu reuni lagi untuk mengingatkanku seperti apa kehidupan aku yang lalu, bukan aku tidak merindukan kalian kawan. Bercanda layaknya anak umur belasan, ber haha hihi mengenang waktu lalu.

Menyesakkan bila di ingat, Bukan karna aku masih terluka, aku hanya merasa tidak bangga dengan apa yang aku lakukan. Melarikan diri...? Bukan, aku hanya ingin sendiri.

Sekarang... biarkan aku bersama kehidupanku, karna aku sudah tau di mana tempatku. Diantara orang yang membuatku menjadi diriku sendiri. Dunia semu...? tp setidaknya diantara mereka ada orang yang aku cintai.

Loveless

My name is Breathless
I can’t breathe when you are near
My name is Memoryless
I have no memories, only fear
My name is Bondless
There can’t be a bond between you and me
My name is Friendless
I don’t have any friends as you can see
My name is Sleepless
I just stay awake and think of you
My name is Painless
There’s only emptiness and nothing you can do
My name is Tearless
There are no tears left to cry
My name is Trustless
Can’t trust anyone just want to die
My name is Skinless
There’s no outside to show me
My name is Nameless
There’s just nothing I can be
My name is Warless
I don’t want to fight
My name is Endless
I want to be forever by your side
But I will destroy everything we’ve built together

My name is Loveless...

Bagaimana Meng-upgrade hidup kita

Aiihhh... membosankan sekali blog aku akhir-akhir ini, dari pada bosen gak jelas. Aku membaca sebuah artikel tentang cara meng-update hidup. Biasanya kita meng-upgrade telepon, komputer, TV, dan bahkan pacar kita (Jokes), tapi bagaimana dengan kehidupan kita?
Berikut adalah beberapa hal yang bisa dilakukan dan membuat hidup kita setingkat lebih baik :

1. Upgrade your food. Carilah versi sehat hal-hal yang saat ini kita makan dan nikmati. Jika kita suka sandwich, misalnya, mengganti mayones dengan hummus. Yang biasa makan mie instan, gantilah denga roti dan selai kacang, lebih banyak minum jus segar dari pada minum coke.
2. Upgrade your hugs.. Jika kita tidak memeluk, mulailah. Jika kita memeluk, tahan 2 detik lebih lama.
3. Upgrade your reading material. Baca Deepak Chopra 7 Spiritual Laws Sukses atau buku lain yang membantu pertumbuhan, imajinasi, kreativitas, pencerahan kita, dll... klo yang ini novel juga tidak apa, selama novel tersebut merangsang imajinasi kita. Novel yang disarankan lebih ke novel sejara, misalkan Musashi, Takeko, dan banyak novel yang sedikitnya menambah pengetahuan kita.
4. Upgrade your free time. Alih-alih menonton TV, menghabiskan waktu melakukan hal-hal yang membawa kita dalam pengembangan pribadi. Mengunjungi sebuah galeri seni inspirasi, atau mendengarkan musik sambil melukis misalkan... akhir-akhir ini waktu yang berkualitas untuk sendiri terkadang memang sedikit. Tersita rutinitas sehari-hari.
5. Upgrade your friends. Oh snap! Mari kita hadapi: beberapa teman yang tidak baik untuk kita. Kita tahu siapa mereka. Mengolah dan memprioritaskan hubungan sehat dalam hidup. Dalam artian kita boleh berteman dengan siapapun selama membawa pengaruh yang baik.
6. Upgrade your attitude. Orang yang tercerahkan tidak mengeluh, atau berkata "Aku lelah" dalam menyelesaikan banyak hal.
7. Upgrade the thoughts you entertain. Menyuntikkan sedikit cinta, kasih dan kebaikan hati, berpikir positif, mengurangi prasangka buruk.

Dan di sini adalah beberapa saran favorit dari teman-teman :

1. Lebih banyak membuat puisi. Baca lebih banyak puisi.
2. Menghapus semua file yang tidak baik dari hard drive kita (otak, jantung, jiwa, dll).
3. Memiliki waktu sekali seminggu di mana kita berfokus pada orang lain selain diri kita sendiri.
4. Fokus pada sukacita dari hal-hal kecil.
5. Cinta yang lebih dalam, tertawa lebih banyak, makan sehat, menghargai dan memiliki banyak sekali anggur dan sex! (heuheuheu....)
6. Belilah 4 iPhone. Ada sebuah aplikasi untuk itu.
7. Diam dan nikmatilah.

Tetapi pada intinya meng-upgrade hidup apapun itu caranya, bertujuan membuat hidup kita setahap lebih baik dari sebelumnya...

How to Walk on Water (and Turn It into Wine).

In the world of magnetology (yes, there’s such a thing), opposite poles attract. It’s what makes a compass point North, keeps your computer buzzing, your electricity flowing and your telephone ringing. But the principle of opposites attracting doesn’t seem to carry over to the world of emotions and energy.
If someone is very angry, for example, they’ll probably encounter a lot of anger in the world. It’s simple: If you engage people with a negative energy, then that same energy is often mirrored back in like form. Call it karma. Call it logic. Call it duh.

But wise and precious are the few that mirror love even when hate or shame or anger is spewed their way. These are the saints living among us – the people that won’t participate in road rage, won’t seek revenge and refuse to create enemies. These are the people that turn the other cheek and give me hope that we’ll be able to overcome our world’s insanity of violence, abuse, cruelty and indifference.

Hold love in your heart and hey, you’ll be walking on water before lunch and turning water into wine in no time.

From Davey Wavey

Ngeblog...!

Pada awalnya buat aku ngeblog hanyalah sebagai jurnal online tanpa harapan orang akan membacanya. Dengan menulisnya di sini bisa tersimpan cukup lama dibandingkan dengan bila aku menulisnya di buku. Aku pikir akan keren untuk melihat ke belakang dalam 10 atau 20 tahun dan melihat beberapa petualanganku dan cerita tentang berbagai hal. Maksudnya hanyalah menjadi sebuah buku harian pribadi, tp tentu saja semuanya berubah.

Semua ide aku berasal dari orang-orang dan pengalaman dalam hidupku. Percakapan di taman. Telepon dengan teman-teman. Petualangan dari bepergian. untuku ini adalah sumur inspirasi yang sepertinya tidak pernah kering. Meski kadang memang aku terlalu sibuk untuk mengisinya. Aku buka orang yang banyak kata, tapi saat ini aku baru mulai.

There’s a lot still to be said!

Prasangka

Jika jahat perbuatan seseorang, maka buruk semua dugaannya.

kini terbuktilah dugaan-dugaan yang biasa ia lakukan

memusuhi semua sahabat dengan ucapan-ucapan kasaria terjerumus dalam gulita prasangka dan dugaan (Al-Khaththabi, al-'Uzlah, hlm. 48. Puisi tersebut dinisbatkan kepada al-Mutanabbi. 97 )

Senja di Pantaimu

"Kalo kamu ke Jogja, aku akan mengajakmu kesana, pantainya bagus... pasir yang berbukit." Ceritamu dengan riang seperti biasa...
"Baiklah... nanti kita ke sana ya... "
"Kamu yakin?" Tanyamu
"Tentu saja." Jawabku mantap

Tp entah kapan....

The different Labels of Lesbian

The following is an extensive guide to the different Labels a Lesbian may have. In my experience, I have come across many Lesbians who just thought they were a Lesbian. If you are a Lesbian and questioning what type of Lesbian you are, then this guide is for you!

Lesbian
Lesbian is a term most widely used in the English language to describe sexual and romantic desire between females. The word may be used as a noun, to refer to women who identify themselves or who are characterized by others as having the primary attribute of female homosexuality, or as an adjective, to describe characteristics of an object or activity related to female same-sex desire.

Alternate Definition: A woman who loves or is sexually attracted to women. I read through other descriptions of lesbian and some people who made definitions on this word are just plain retarded.

1. There is NO good or bad type of lesbian. It doesnt matter if they are ugly or pretty. They are people. Just like you get ugly and pretty straight people. You don't group them into 'good and bad groups' do you?

2. Lesbians aren't all man haters. Yes a few are. But then again some (I'm not saying all) straight men are sexist towards women and treat them as objects. So you can't say that lesbians are all sexist when plenty of straight people are.

3. YOU AREN'T GOING TO TURN A LESBIAN STRAIGHT BY HAVING SEX WITH THEM. OMG…. That's just plain stupid. Some guys that have their heads up their asses seem to think that lesbians are women you haven't ever had sex with a man before. Or that being homosexual is just a mental illness or something that can only be cured with sex with a guy. If she's a lesbian then she's not going to appreciate you trying to f***k her. You'll probably just get slapped.

Dyke
Another word for lesbian. Usually is only used by people who are gay, lesbian, bisexual or trans. A straight person using this word may offend some people.

Alternate Definition: Although originally a derogatory term for lesbians, it is now often used with pride by lesbians themselves, especially the younger and hipper lesbian crowd. Some lesbians (especially older or super-sensitive ones) still object to the term, but it is becoming increasingly common and mainsteam (at least within the gay community), with events such as "Dyke Nights" or "Dyke Marches" being held around the country. In fact some dykes resent being called a lesbian, as they feel it is much less cool than being called a dyke.
*Note: Dyke with a "y" is a lesbian. Dike with an "i" is for damming water.

Gold Star Lesbian
A gold star lesbian is a lesbian who has never slept with a man and has no intention of ever sleeping with a man.

Lone Star Lesbian
A Lone Star Lesbian is not a lesbian from Texas. A Lone Star Lesbian is someone who has only had sex with one person in their life. Straight and bisexual people can be Lone Stars too.

Lipstick Lesbian
A lipstick lesbian is a woman who loves other women, but also loves her clothes and makeup and shoes. She tends to dress on the femmy side. Also known as Femme or Fem.

Alternate Definition: A feminine lesbian. It can be used interchangably with femme to indicate a feminine lesbian, but strictly speaking, a femme is usually attracted to masculine, or butch, lesbians and a lipstick lesbian is attracted to other feminine lesbians.

Often thought of as demure, submissive creatures, many, if not all femmes and lipstick lesbians are quite strong, independant women.


Chapstick Lesbian
A chapstick lesbian is also known as a soft butch or androgynous. She usually dresses quite casually and does not wear make-up. The term Chapstick Lesbian was popularized after an episode of the TV show Ellen. Someone asked Ellen if she were a lipstick lesbian or what. Ellen replied, she was more of a chapstick lesbian.

Alternate Definition: A female homosexual whose gender identity is slightly to the femme side of neutral on the femme-butch continuum of gender presentation but whose appearance and preferences stop short of those of a "lipstick lesbian."

Femme
A feminine lesbian. Also known as a Lipstick Lesbian. Sometimes spelled Fem.

Alternate Definition: A (traditionally) feminine woman. Mainly used to refer to a feminine lesbian, and especially a feminine lesbian who is attracted to masculine, or butch lesbians.

Often thought of as passive, dulcet, timid little things with long locks of hair; prissy dresses; great big fawn eyes; a high, baby-doll voice; the courage of a lamb and the intelligence of a gardenia. But we're all human, so don't expect that stereotype of finding every femme to be submissive, faint-hearted little fairies. Plenty of femmes kick butt and are even the dominant over their butch partners.

Blue Jeans Femme
A Blue Jean Femme is a lesbian who identifies as femme, or feminine, but prefers jeans and more casual clothing to dresses and skirts.

Butch
A woman who adopts what would be considered masculine characteristics.

Alternate Definition: A (traditionally) masculine man or woman, and especially a masculine lesbian. Often the "dominant" partner in a lesbian relationship, and especially of a butch/femme lesbian relationship.

Dressing masculinely does not make a woman into a lesbian, contrary to popular belief; it's usually more convenient. Acting masculinely only means that's the gender role that the person identifies with; it has nothing to do with their sexual life. A highly masculine man could be gay for all we know and a very feminine man could be straight for all we know, and both of these cases are frequent.

Stone Butch
A stone butch is a lesbian who gets her pleasure from pleasing her partner. She does not like to be touched sexually.

Alternate Definition: Most masculine of the Butches - may pass as male without actually trying. May identify as transgender, that is identifying outside of the gender usually associated with females. Does all or most of the above in masculine gender expressions. May or may not be sexually aggressive. Will not be made love to as one would a "woman". Will have questioned their gender at some time in their lives. Will not be totally comfortable with their female body. May think of Butch as a separate gender from man & woman.


Pillow Queen
A Pillow Queen is someone who likes to be on the receiving end of sex. She likes to be pleasured and not reciprocate.

Soft Butch
A soft butch is a lesbian whose appearance is generally androgynous. She may dress and act in a masculine manner, but be soft and more feminine in the inside. Also, a soft butch can be someone who falls somewhere between butch and femme, but closer to the butch side.

Stem
A stem is a lesbian who identifies somewhere between "stud" and "femme". Also known as Kiki.

Kiki
Kiki is a term that was used in the lesbian bar culture of the 1950s and 1960s to describe someone who was neither butch nor femme. At that time, the bar culture was very much into roles and most women were pressured to choose either butch or femme.

Futch
Dani Campbell, a lesbian firefighter from Florida who was one of the contestants on MTV's Shot at Love with Tila Tequila coined the word "Futch." She says the word describes someone who is neither feminine nor butch, but a cross between.
Alternate Definition: A lesbian, dyke or other variety of queer woman who possesses or displays qualities and identifiers of both butch and femme. (noun)
Futch (adjective) describes:
a) a non-standard display of female masculinity, which contains elements of the feminine (such as clothing, walk, cosmetics, shoes).
b) a non-standard display of queer femininity, containing elements of the masculine (such as clothing, walk, cosmetics, shoes).

If butch/femme is a spectrum, a futch may be found at any or all of the points in between.

A futch presentation may occasionally be ephemeral, caused by the migration of an woman's queer self-identity, but is much more likely to be ongoing and deliberate; reflecting an individual's own position of comfort on the queer gender presentation scale.

Tila Tequila's date, Dani Campbell, a lesbian firefighter from Florida, claims she invented the word "futch" to describe herself as being part butch, part femme. However, a spot of research will reveal that the word has been in moderate usage in the dyke community since at least 1990. Dani would have had to be a very inventive little futch at 11 to be the word's progenitor.

Sometimes futch sighting is a false positive, as in the case of many rural women who make the gaydar spang wildly, but who are merely hetero women who portray common lesbian markers, such as speaking firmly, gesturing strongly, taking no nonsense, and using no botox. While wearing boots.

Boi
For lesbians, a boi is a woman who is biologically female, but has a boyish appearance or presentation. A boi may be lesbian identified or s/he may be trans identified. For gay men a boi is a gay man who is boyish or young in appearance or identity.

Alternate Definition: This spelling of the word originated in a gay magazine called, "XY" in the early to mid 1990's. XY is targeted at gay male teenagers. This spelling describes a youthful, hip, and attractive male. While completely embraced in the gay community to mean any young, sexually attractive male, this spelling also appears in heterosexual contexts to mean similarly, a young, handsome guy.

However, now A boi is a lesbian or gender-queer person who identifies most with their male energy and presents themselves as male in their appearance. They may consider themselves to be of either gender although they are anatomically female.

Power Dyke
A Power Dyke is a lesbian who has gained a position of power, either within the LGBT community, or in the world at large. She could be the head of a non-profit agency, a politician or successful in business. Also known as Power Lesbian or a Suit.

Diesel Dyke
A Diesel Dyke is a very butch or manly lesbian, especially one who is very aggressive. In some lesbian circles Diesel Dyke refers to a very butch Big-Rig (or other heavy equipment) driving lesbian. Also known as Bulldagger.

Alternate Definition: A lady (often quite large,) that prefers the (very) close company of other ladies, known as femmes. Regularly seen wearing a lumberjack shirt, boots and dungarees/bib & braces overalls.

Origin: Due to the normal extreme mass of these 'ladies,' it has often been assumed that locomotion could only be facilitated with the assistance of a powerful Diesel engine

Sport Dyke
A sport dyke is a lesbian, who more than anything, identifies with being an athlete. She may also dress in a manner that would give the impression she is an athlete, like baseball caps, sweatshirts and jeans.

Baby Dyke
A young lesbian or someone who is just coming out of the closet. Also know as Dyke in Training. Common Misspellings include: baby dike.

Stud
A dominant lesbian, usually butch, often African American.

Hasbian
A hasbian is a woman who used to identify as a lesbian and date women, but is now dating men.

Alternate Definition: A term meaning a lesbian who now partakes in heterosexual activities. However, it does not mean that a woman has CHANGED her sexual orientation, that is something which does not change. She may however have changed her sexual behavior or identity. The woman may truly be straight and have previously been questioning, or the woman may have been a lesbian who has retreated into the closet, or the woman may be bisexual, omnisexual or something else of that nature but by no means can a person change their orientation.

LUG
LUG stands for "Lesbian until Graduation". A LUG is a woman who experiments with women during her college years, but eventually decides she is straight and marries a man.

Alternate Definition: Someone who for whatever personal/logistical reasons decides to be a lesbian until graduation. The seriousness of this can range from officially identifying as a lesbian (possibly accompanied by an elaborate coming out process) to avoidance of the offical term and simply fucking around with girls. Rather like cinderella after midnight, these are the girls who revert back to the male half of the species after leaving the college bubble. A very common occurance at women's colleges. Also has a counter-part in the term bi until graduation (BUG). Most frequently used on womens college's campuses, the term may also be used as an insult or warning and is oftentimes by other women who have more romantic or sexual experience with other women (AKA lesbians/bi chicks who have come to terms with their sexuality earlier on and are talking about the chicks who're just now starting to explore).

Drag King
A drag king is a woman who dresses to look like a man, usually for performance. Drag kings are often lesbian, but not always.

Alternate Definition: A woman who, generally for public entertainment, dons men's clothes and adopts a stereotypically masculine demeanor while on stage. As with drag queens, a drag king's performance can range from a silly, overdone parody to a more natural, subtle depiction of masculinity.

Bisexual
A person who is sexually and emotionally attracted to both women and men.

Alternate Definition: To be bisexual is to be attracted to a person regardless or gender or sex. It does not mean that you cannot make up your mind, it does not mean you are sex-crazed, and it does not mean that you will by default participate in orgies every night.

Although not a direct Lesbian term, it is relevant to #TheLesbianClub.

Pansexual
A pansexual is someone who is attracted people of many genders. Also known as Omnisexual.

Alternate Definition: A pansexual is someone who isn't influenced by the binaries and labels surrounding gender and sexuality. This can mean attraction to anyone regardless of their gender identity or sexual orientation. Some pansexuals take it a step further to be openly against those labels and definitions, considering them to be destructive and alienating.

Although not a direct Lesbian term, it is relevant to #TheLesbianClub.

Lesbophile
A lesbophile is someone who loves or appreciates lesbians. This is considered Lesbian Slang.

Gayelle
Gayelle is a new word that some women are trying to get to replace the word "lesbian" in the English language. According to gayelle.org, the word lesbian is antiquated and not cheerful or fun. So, they want to create a new word that they feel better fits their perception of themselves. Only time will tell if this new word takes off.

Although this is not a Label for Lesbians, I felt it was important to include this.

I sincerely hope that this was of help to some people, and that it is fairly accurate.

Remember, stay proud!

People come into your life for a reason

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on…
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season. LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Aku Pasrah pada Juni

Sudah cukup mengurai Rindu, dalam perdu Mei.
Aku Pasrah pada Juni
Sudah saatnya kelenjar airmata berhenti bekerja...

Yang lebih menyakitkan

Apa yang lebih menyakitkan...
Orang yang kau cintai tidak mencintai kamu
atau mengetahui bahwa orang yang kau cintai ternyata tidak bahagia denganmu...

No Air

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air....

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

So tell me...!

A Dog’s Story Hachiko

Kali ini aku ingin bercerita tentang sebuah film yang mengharukan banget, aku menangis dengan air mata berderai-derai, terutama pada perempat akhir film, begitu menguras emosi. Aku tidak ingin spoiler lebih banyak lagi, tetapi buat yang memiliki anjing, bersiap-siaplah dengan tissue kalian menjelang akhir film ini.

Film "Hachiko: A Dog’s Story" bercerita tentang seekor anjing yang sangat setia pada tuannya, melebihi batas kesetiaan anjing pada rata-rata.

Cerita ini bermula ketika Profesor Parker Wilson (Richard Gere) menemukan seekor anjing kecil di Stasiun Kereta Api Bedridge, Wonsocked, Amerika Serikat, tempat ia biasa pergi bekerja dan pulang dari kerja. Anjing berjenis akita itu kemudian diajaknya pulang ke rumah dan diberi nama Hachiko.

Parker dan istrinya Cate (Joan Allen) merawat anjing itu hingga Hachiko bertumbuh besar dan tiada tiada hari yang dilewatkan Parker tanpa bermain dengan Hachiko.

Suatu hari, ketika Hachiko sudah beranjak dewasa, tanpa disangka ia mengikuti Parker ke stasiun saat Parker berangkat kerja. Parker terpaksa keluar dari kereta untuk memulangkan Hachico ke rumah.

Namun, ternyata Hachico menjemputnya di stasiun pada pukul 17.00. Sejak saat itu Parker membiarkan Hachico mengantar-jemputnya di stasiun.
Para pemilik kios, pedagang, dan pejalan kaki, serta "commuter" (orang yang bekerja secara "nglaju") tercengang-cengang dengan kelakuan Hachiko yang tidak seperti anjing pada umumnya.

Semua orang orang di sekitar Stasiun Bedridge menyayangi Hachiko dan selalu menyapa anjing itu layaknya sebagai manusia.
Sampai pada satu hari, Hachiko tak menemukan kedatangan tuannya di stasiun pada pukul 17.00.

Parker Wilson ternyata meninggal karena serangan jantung ketika ia tengah mengajar, sementara Hachiko sepertinya tak pernah mengerti perihal meninggalnya Parker.

Setelah kematian Parker, Cate menjual rumahnya dan meninggalkan Bedridge. Sementara Hachiko dipelihara oleh anak perempuan Parker, Andy Wilson (Sarah Roemer).

Berulang kali Hachiko kabur dari rumah Andy untuk pergi ke stasiun, berharap ia akan menemukan tuannya kembali.

Andy selalu menjemput Hachiko di stasiun hingga pada akhirnya Andy merelakan Hachiko pergi. Hachiko tinggal di stasiun dan pada pukul 17.00, ia akan duduk di bundaran di depan stasiun, menanti kedatangan tuannya.

Keunikan tingkah laku Hachiko itu menarik perhatian orang-orang di sekitar situ, bahkan tulisan mengenainya dimuat di koran-koran sehingga kisah anjing ini menjadi legenda. Sehingga orang-orang memberi makan Hachiko secara bergantian.

Kesetiaan Hachiko bertahan hingga tahun kesepuluh meninggalnya Parker. Sampai akhirnya pada musim dingin tahun ke sepuluh, Hachiko meninggal di bundaran stasiun pada tengah malam.

Pembuatan film ini diinspirasi dari kisah nyata seekor anjing bernama Hachiko yang hidup dalam rentang waktup tahun 1923-1935 di Jepang.
Kisah yang disajikan dalam Hachiko: A Dog’s Story persis sama dengan kisah aslinya. Di Jepang, sebuah monumen berupa patung untuk mengenang kesetiaan Hachiko didirikan di depan Stasiun Shibuya.

Seperti film tentang kesetiaan anjing lainnya, sebut saja "Lassie" (2005) dan "Marley and Me" (2009), film ini menyentuh sisi halus perasaan manusia. Bahkan bukan penggemar anjing pun yang menonton film ini bisa meneteskan air mata.

Si pembuat jejak...

Ini kesekian kalinya aku melihat jejak kaki di beranda rumah Beruntunglah hujan selepas pagi tak segera menyapunya... Haruskah aku mengikuti jejaknya satu persatu? Sayang hanya gerbang berduri dan jalan buntu yang menyapaku.
Maaf rumah ini tertutup untukmu... katamu...

Lesbian Comic : I.m not Lesbian

♂ x ♂ = ♥ l Love is Love
♀ x ♀ = ♥ l no matter who
♂ x ♀ = ♥ l you find it in.

Little wonders - Rob Thomas

Let it go
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

Let it slide
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine,
Till you feel it all around you
And I don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by
It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

All of my regret
Will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget
the way I feel right now

In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Yeah, these twisted turns of fate
Time falls away
Yeah, but these small hours,
These small hours
Still remain

Yeah, oh they still remain
These little wonders
All these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders
Still remain

Tidak kurang, tidak lebih, Kita semua sama seperti kalian

Menjadi seorang lesbian dalam budaya yang heterosentris yang selama ini menganggap bahwa yang satu-satunya normal adalah pasangan laki-laki dan perempuan memanglah tidaklah mudah.

Namun demikian perlu kita ketahui Persatuan psikologi dunia pun sudah memutuskan bahwa menjadi seorang gay atau lesbian (homoseksual) adalah suatu hal yang normal dan alamiah dan bukanlah abnormal. Karena memang dari berbagai penelitian tidak ada bukti yang cukup efektif untuk membuat mereka kembali menjadi seorang heteroseksual. Namun hal ini memang tidaklah tersosialisasikan dengan cukup baik di negara homophobic ini.

Yah, tapi tetap saja sikap dan tindak publik yang masih diskriminatif terhadap kelompok homoseksual (gay dan lesbian) menempatkan mereka dalam posisi marjinalisasi atau menggapnya suatu hal yang berbau tabu, aib dan penyakit.

Karena itu jika ada seorang perempuan coming out sebagai seorang lesbian, maka pastinya yang dia dapatkan hanyalah tindakan diskriminatif bahkan sampai pada bentuk kekerasan fisik yang mengakibatkan cacat tubuh, diperkosa dengan dalih supaya kembali menjadi perempuan heteroseksual dll contohnya sudah banyak. Karena itu amat sangat jarang ditemukan perempuan lesbian yang coming out dengan melihat suatu kondisi yang ada.

Yang pada akhirnya banyak dari mereka memilih untuk berpura-pura menjadi seorang perempuan heteroseksual bahkan memilih untuk menikah. Beberapa lesbian memang berada dalam sebuah pernikahan heteroseksual, mereka memilih demikian dikarenakan ingin terlihat baik di depan keluarga dan publik. Dengan landasan tidak ingin menyakiti hati orang tua dan keluarga jika mengetahui anaknya adalah seorang lesbian. Jadi, janganlah melihat masalah ini dari satu sisi saja.

Banyak kok perempuan yang berkerudung dan berjilbab, di bilik-bilik pesantren bahkan seorang biarawati pun ada. lalu kalo mereka lesbian memangnya kenapa? Seorang lesbian tidaklah hanya terjadi pada cewe tomboy atau maskulin dan masih lajang atau tidak menikah. Lesbian itu bisa siapa saja.

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Kata "Lol" dalam bahasa dunia maya

Beberapa waktu lalu, aku aku chating dengan temen maya yang kebetulan memang agak sering, selama percakapan kami temenku ini sering banget menggunakan bahasa "Lol" dan singkatan-singkatan yang lain. Bahkan kata-kata itu sering banget aku temukan pada komentar-komentar status ataupun pada saat chatting. dasar mungkin aku yang gak gaul atau dah ketuaan klo pake bahasa2 gaul begitu.. jadinya gak ngerti... hehehe. Faktor U mungkin... :P

Lalu apa arti sesungguhnya "Lol" itu?

Lol adalah "Laughing out Loud" atau bahasa Indonesianya Tertawa Lebar/tertawa Ngakak. Dan dalam beberapa penerapan chatting yang pernah aku alami, penggunaannya tidak sesuai dengan topik pembicaraan. Itu berarti bahwa kebanyakan orang menggunakan bahasa-bahasa Slang seperti itu asal menggunakan dan asal keren.

duuhh... memang pusing klo ngomong sama orang yang lebih muda... banyak gak ngerti bahasa-bahasa gaul... hehehe....

Coba ada kamus bahasa gaul begitu ya... :P

Jangan Narsis donk...!

Bangga dan kagum pada diri sendiri sah-sah saja. Bahkan, dalam batas tertentu justru bisa merupakan indikasi kesehatan mental seseorang. Namun, hati-hatilah kalau kekaguman itu muncul secara berlebihan dan mengarah pada Narsisme. Karna akan berakibat buruk pada diri sendiri.

"Jangan Narsis donk...!" sering banget kayaknya denger kata narsis seperti itu, bahkan salah satu produk rokok klo gak salah memakai narsis dalam iklannya... kenapa tidak kata itu memang sering banget kita denger di pergaulan sehari-hari. Tapi sebenarnya apa sih yang dimaksud dengan naris atau narsisme ini...?

Menurut john C. nemian, Psikiatri dari Harvard Medical Centre School, As, Narsisme berasal dari seorang pemuda tampan dalam mitos Yunani kuno, Narcissus... merupakan salah satu bentuk gangguan kepribadian yang merujuk pada pola-pola prilaku yang merusak hubungan dengan orang lain di sekelilingnya. Figur seperti ini biasanya sulit memahami orang lain, selalu menolak masukan yang menunjukan kekurangannya. tak sedikit yang mengidap narsisme yang berakhir pada depresi berat dan melukai diri sendiri. Perhatikan hal-hal berikut ini agar kmu tidak terjerumus dalam jurang narsisme... :

1. Lakukan Instrospeksi diri secara berkala terhadap emosi dan keinginan yang muncul dalam diri sendiri. Apakah sudah cukup baik dan tidak merugikan orang lain?
2. Lawanlah setiap dorongan emosi yang egoistis dan tidak realistis yang muncul dalam diri sendiri.
3. Belajarlah untuk memiliki rasa empati.
4. Biasakan diri untuk mengamati berbagai masalah dari perspektif orang lain.

Naahh.. begitulah menurut majalah yang aku baca... hehehe. Aku sendiri juga kadang-kadang suka narsis kok...
Narsis boleh-boleh saja selama masih pada batas yang wajar... Iya khan... ?

Jadi... masih mau narsis... ?

… Please don’t stop the music …

Clubbing…. An atmosphere that is made up of more than just music, lights, alcohol, intoxication and dancing. It’s about the way you look in a club. How one dresses determines how others rate or categorizes you. Everyone knows that a girl takes the longest time to get ready. I know, I take an hour to get ready just for school. When it concerns clubbing, I definetly need more time. I need to decide on alot of things: from clothes till shoes. There’s an extra effort put into dressing when it concerns clubbing. Why is that so? If it is a just a place to unwind and dance, why must one put alot of effort into dressing?

Short skirts, halter tops, low cut tops, tight skinny jeans, bling bling accessories and high heels are all associated when clubbing. When one person does not follow this socially constructed dress code, they are frowned upon. What do others see in us? Do you think about other people making judgements about you? What sort of impression do you make on people that you meet for the first time when you go clubbing?

People go clubbing for different interests. Some to enjoy with their friends and others to pick up an attractive partner.

Imagine this: A girl wears a short miniskirt and is dancing with her friends on the dancefloor. A guy sees this girl and thinks that she is an easy target. He makes a move on her and she does not retaliate. Her friends push the guy away from her. This scenario shows that just because of the way the girl is dressed, the guy has the impression that she is easy. This usually happens in clubs.

I think people who go clubbing feel that for that one night, their life is on a stage where one portrays their life in a socially constructed manner. Our behaviour is controlled to create a certain impression known as self-presentation and impression management. We dress according to the “dress code”; presenting ourselves to others and our goal is to manage the impression that has already been made of us…..

……………….Is all this drama worth for one night? ………………………..

So what say you? Clubbing…. strenuous event?

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